[ ...ah. that's actually a very good question. a better one than he would've come up with on his own (this guy is smart, chu wenshan decides absently), even after hearing it a couple of times. it's always lone swordsman this, lone swordsman that, blood flows like rivers, etc..

his hand raises to his chin and he stares off thoughtfully—or at least as thoughtfully as his face can get. when he speaks, his voice is a little slow, as if he's still contemplating. ]

I don't know. [ taken literally? no, but even he recognizes that it's a metaphor of some kind. ] I don't know if I was that kind of ruthless person before, but if people attacked me, I must've attacked them back.

People are still attacking me, but I haven't killed any of them. So that must mean the answer is no.